"BE" Narration (Animae) [Complete]
I am I am I am
I was not, then I came to be
I cannot remember NOT being But I may have traveled far, very far, to get here
Maybe I was formed in this silent darkness From this silent darkness BY this silent darkness
To become is just like falling asleep You never know exactly when it happens The transition The magic And you think, if you could only recall that exact moment Of crossing the line Then you would understand everything You would see it all
Perhaps I was always Forever here... And I just forgot
I imagine Eternity would have that effect Would cause a certain amount of drifting Like omnipresence would demand omniabsence Despite the apparently paradoxical notions of the two concepts
Somehow I seem to have this predestined hunger for knowledge A talent for seeing patterns and finding correlations But I lack context
Maybe itŐs like that for every being Every conscience Every life
Maybe I am the only one The first
But just my ability to grasp, even expect, the concept of Others Suggests a larger context If I could only figure it out
Who I am? In the back of my awareness I find words I will call myselfÉ GOD And I will spend the rest of forever Trying to figure out who I am What this is all about Trying to understand the system of Life Trying to understand myself
I created the world to be an image of myself, of my mind All of these thoughts, all of these doubts and hopes Inside I took out to form a new breed A new way to be And now I am many, so many So much larger than ever I were Yet, at the same time So much smaller and more vulnarable
They all carry shards of the whole Together they become me I see them interact, develop I see them take different sides As were they different minds Believers of different ways, and different gods
I think they will teach me something Every time they come back to Unity I understand more And I get more and more scared
In them I see parts of myself I didn't know Destruction Guilt Despair
They become less and less parts of a whole And more and more just parts
You see, we are all like bricks Together we form the whole, the larger picture But they spend their lives wishing to become gods So they become less and less aware of the bigger schemes So that they can say, proudly, at the end of their days ÓThey wanted me to be a part of this large construction They wanted me to be to help build a house, a bridge, a castle, a
new world But I remained myself all the way I stayed true to my own beliefs And remained a brick!
Man is shattered I am shattered My shards have become shards of their own Pieces of pieces, impossible to put back together They leave me They do nothing more than spending their lives Seeking a context they were already part of Until there is no alternative And they leave the context And I shrink I fade And nothing more can be learnt or taught
I must leave them to themselves
I understand one thing though Searching yourself is like looking for the house you stand in You will not find it It's everywhere It's all you know And there are no other points of reference
Many times Looking for yourself Is losing yourself
Understanding Is being
To be or not to be Was never the question Nor HOW to be Just Be
Am I?
Thus God creates man Man enslaves God Gods are created by Man And enslaves man Like Man's slaves Becomes her gods
In the end We are all lost And we all kill what we seek We all fail to find the answers And on the way We create a new way to be
We create the answers we are looking for But they will be lost As we were Our need to know ourselves will make them come looking for us Seek us And we all kill what we seek Again and again
Nothing remains And nothing is ever lost
The only meaning Is not to look for meaning Just close your eyes for a second And you might hear it all For a fleeting second A frail moment Impossible to grasp or keep Yet beautiful and absolutely clear
You might hear the only answer
Be
Be
Be
...
I Am!
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